Sunday, November 15, 2009
hallelujah. please forgive me for being here. i seriously need a break from HP102. though i only need to complete the discussion part of my project, it's taking up a lot of my time. can't blame anyone, i just don't(and don't bother to) understand that module well. i was practically crapping my way through the discussion, churning out beautiful KC theories and some mind-influencing statements. hope they are passable. i just need a C for it to be SU-ed!
talked to cousin today. the thoughts of changing courses occupied me for the past few days, part of the reason why i'm not focusing in my revision.(other major part being KC's world's greatest procrastinator with 1.654% mental strength) cousin knocked some sense into me today. there is no easy way out in uni. you either give your all and see where your passion truly lies in the end or you just back out whenever trouble is near and don't even think of getting close to your passion. i'm always in for fun and out for studies. maybe it's the environment or just me not being able to get my priorites right. I WAS trying to figure everything out and NOW i can see some light and the direction i should take. it's time for a switch and change. but first, i've to increase my mental strength. the period that follows is not going to be easy and it's going to be a long road.
minor in studies, major in activities.
laugh it off.
time for change.
i want double majors in studies and activities (:
thanks, THE SECRET.
what we could have been, 11:43 PM.
Sunday, November 08, 2009
just do whatever you promise yourself to do,
stop finding excuses
and you'll love the peace that follows.
hello GD!
kill your mind and let your heart leads you.
everyone out there, we'll tide through this.
what we could have been, 5:40 PM.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
it's the transition phase.
everyone is starting to be different and things are changing.
but why is it happening so fast?
without any tint of warning and worst still, at my most vulnerable state.
it just dropped like a bomb, totally catching me off-guard.
it's been 2 months and i still can't handle it.
if i still can't nip it in the bud, it will sooner or later tear me apart.
i don't like it when this thing is confusing and troubling me all the time.
i shouln't get so distracted by all these superficial stuffs.
i really hate this kind of meaningless war between you and yourself.
it's so brainless and you're really looking for trouble.
as troubled as you're, you can't speak it out.
i'm on my own to figure this out.
there's so many cross-roads in life, do rmb to choose it correctly.
and don't regret your decision.
it's not the right time for this and nothing makes sense anymore.
i will survive. dont worry.
what we could have been, 11:57 PM.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
you can fool the rest, but can you deceit yourself?
cant even be true to yourself?
goodness, pity shit.
i need some cleansing.
of soul and of my thinkings.
i never feel so disgusted by myself before.
seriously, get a life KC!
what we could have been, 2:07 AM.
time's running out.
get your priorities right.
it's raining.
what we could have been, 10:11 AM.